Text to @luckysox: “So I started reading this book called The
Art and Etiquette of Polyamory, it’s pretty good so far, it’s on my google
books page if you want to read it too"
Response: “LOL Wow that’s funny. I was just reading about some good books to
read”
It IS funny;
it’s funny when you consider where we were two years ago, sexually open and
emotionally closed. The more and more we
talk openly about this new adventure the more comfortable the conversations
become. Are we Poly now? I don’t think we can say that for a fact, as
neither of us has developed those foundations with others yet.
YET. The road I am
currently on is moving that way and I am fucking excited about it. He is a truly incredible person and I am honored
to have caught his eye.
Of course, trying to define each
poly relationship into one term is impossible because of the diversity of each
individual practicing the “lifestyle”.
Cultural, moral and spiritual upbringing chisels each of us into the magnificent
creatures we are now, why try and contain that into one box? Unfortunately, those chisels are flawed and we
sometimes are stuck with distorted pictures of ourselves battling what we know
isn’t FOR us or what we are supposed to do.
I’m married; I’m supposed to only love my husband, right? Ask me that question 6 months ago and I would
have agreed (only in my individual case... I never judged anyone’s lifestyle
choices). My husband is the most
important thing in my life and nothing could ever change how I feel about him,
and how I have chosen him as my life partner through thick and thin, forever
and ever.
Over the last few weeks as these
lovely events have unfolded there has been some taunting, of sorts, between
us. At first they were taken seriously,
as to make sure the other is OKAY with the silly remarks or gestures regarding
possible partners. We would joke, and
then discuss seriously what that meant by that.
He may make a cute side remark about my “boyfriend” or something alluding
to that title, or tell me that he bought me something I should wear for that
boyfriend. Hmm.. How things have changed
in a few weeks. To be honest, I’m loving
the fantasy of actually DOING that and then telling my hubby about it when I
get home. The only thing that makes this
fantasy even better? It’s actually going
to happen. *insert happy dance here*
Not
only are there fun times ahead, but certainly challenges from all sides. I am preparing myself as much as I can in
such a novice place as I am in at the moment.
What will it feel like the first time we are apart with others? Should we do it on the same night? We’ve debated this a few times. I’m of the opinion that it probably SHOULD be
at the same time. This way, nobody is
left home alone with nothing but their thoughts to run ramped through their brain
like a bunch of wild monkeys on a meth binge, which will never end well. We do have the freedom of no children at this
moment in time, so let’s take advantage!
The thought of Luckysox going out without me actually excites me, more
so than I thought it would. I know there
are deep seeded areas of him that I cannot satisfy, and the same is true in
reverse. Does it make me love him any
less? Absolutely not. It makes me appreciate his incredible depth
and willingness to explore this new path with me. Can you imagine a person who is so fulfilled on
so many levels being your life partner?
I CAN!!!!
I have
a very good feeling about 2013… New year, new opportunities for growth in
multiple areas of my life and greeting each and every one of them with an open
mind, open heart and a hot pair of heels.
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